It was always too something for you. That's why you can't understand me, why your not here living in this time with me. It was too expensive, it was too much trouble, it was too far, too risky, too cold, too dangerous.
All these factors are real it's true, but where did doing nothing get you. Don't you see what you let slip away. I am no longer the person you once knew. Moreover, the complexities of this great distance you will never understand.
I will advise again, that should you search your whole life and be so fortunate to find something beautiful, go for it man. Jump dammit.
